You win some you lose some

A friend of mine had recently told me this after my team had lost to hers in a debate competition happening today. Ironic isnt it because thats what I had told her the exact same thing yesterday . Today I was taking part in the DebateMate competition happening at school . I came second by one point in the first round and second again in the 2 round by not explaining properly one point . Fate really seems to hate me . Whenever i come close to victory it takes me and kicks me down the big black well of loss and sadness . I now am pretty optimistic about making it to the finals and it is with a very heavy heart I write this . In a few minutes I will go on to face the next few teams in the Third round . My only thing keeping my hopes up is the fact that I must win that round by a large amount of points and must debate like never so . But then again nothing and noone in this world seems to like me and Karma and Fate seems to be no exception . I doubt weather or not I have any wellwishers out in the world and if there any I just hope I can find them .If by some luck I manage to reach the finals then I hope just hope that I would be able to win that as well . 

Regards 

SAN

My Reason

                                                            My sin

This is my first blog yet this is one of my most painful.I am a student in the class of grade 9 . Yesterday our maths teacher gave us a test on 50 marks which he had painstakingly made . After one hour of his invigilation he left for another programme leaving another teacher for us .We like the scum that we are took advantage of this and cheated . I restrained myself till the last few somes when my resolve broke and I cheated a sum . My resolve broke because of two reasons. My sir was a hard man no nonesense type . But the way he did stuff for us I realized that he loved each and everyone of us as much as he would his own child. He had given me and emotional beatdown the same day a bit before the test .I felt that if I performed badly I would be breaking his hopes and expectations of me and letting him down,My parents would also be sad at my parents would be let down as well . If theres anything I hate it would be to let down those I hold close to the heart . But this let him down even more . I just hope that he has it in him to forgive me though I have lied to him point blank about the fact of weather or not I informed the family of my cheating. If he does not forgive me I just he hope he understood the reason to why I have done this